once a cynic

Over the years I've changed my view on teenage relationships. I was once so anti-relationship to the point that I would go out of my way just to pay out other people and their deteriorating relationships. Don't get me wrong, I still laugh to myself when people break up with each other, but after being put into the position of liking two girls at the same time I've been brought to a point where I don't really care either way. It's still ridiculous when some couples think they're going to marry but when you look at it in the end most of the time nothing really happens... besides a few "broken" hearts here and there. 

I look at the two people I have a "crush" on and come to the self-realisation that I probably won't even talk to them in the next year or so. Then again, if I did just let everything go it'd be a waste of nearly 2 years of my life, investing in taking the time to talk to them and what not.

I don't know.

Good day

Met up with Sharon today after months of only talking to her through skype! Was quite nervous a first to be honest, I thought it'd be awkward as hell but it turned out to be the complete opposite. Goes to show, 2/3 of my closest "girl-friends" I've all met from tumblr and the transition into actually meeting them in real life has gone smoothly. Yay for not being socially awkward. Great day.

Time of night

I guess you can relate this to sort of girls having their periods and being "over-emotional". If I'm ever up this late at night (12-2am) I'll get annoyed at the slightest things, just be angry in general or feel like shit. It could be a combination of all 3 or just one single one, depends on the type of night I've had. Tonight, I feel annoyed and lonely. It sucks. I should start sleeping before 12, it'd help a lot and I wouldn't be I'm feeling what I'm feeling right now. Oh well.

Mandarins

Mandarins suck. They're one of those things that are either good or bad. There's no in between section towards the quality of a mandarin. I just had 2 and they were both shit.

Waste of a day

I slept at like 2AM yesterday and woke up at 8 then slept again and woke up at 10 and then again till 12. I was meant to study today. Looks like I'll just do it tomorrow. 30-40 min periods. Must. Sleep. Earlier.

One sided

The amount of effort and """"care"""" I show for some people really never gets returned. It sucks but I can't help but being "there" for people because there's some little stupid feeling inside me that says they'll return the favour eventually.

Disregarded

Sad how one thing can completely overshadow something else. Feels good man.